Thank You For You

Dear LOVIE

How can I expect you to trust my guidance back to SELF if I don’t first show you MY SELF.

My intention is to heal and release all that is holding me back, to absorb & embrace all that is meant to be so that I can in turn help you do the same.

I believe in order to really do that I have to first be real and transparent about my struggles.

For every day I’m up I have countless others where I’m down.

Moments like this where I literally have to hold my own head up as a reminder that I have to be there for myself too.

Even when just getting through the day takes everything I have in me.

Today I was upset with myself for not doing more, sooner.

For needing to rest, regroup & readjust.

I tried to fight it and couldn’t.

My self wouldn’t allow me to.

I will continue to admit I have much to improve upon.

Flaws, breakdowns, struggles and all.

I’m healing, not healed.

But I refuse to give up on either of us.

I know we can help heal even as we heal.

We are warriors.

Our tears are not a sign of weakness.

I shall no longer deny nor shy away from allowing myself to feel any and all that I feel from one moment to the next.

& neither should you.

You are light, in the midst of darkness.

You are love, no matter how long you’ve spent feeling otherwise.

You are energy, even when you feel tired.

You are strong, in all moments of weakness.

You are peace, despite turmoil.

You are healing, even as you are wounded.

You are divine.

You have the power to be who you want to be.

The journey may not be easy nor fair but it shall be worth it.

You are strong enough to make it through.

Offer yourself grace in times of need.

Be the you that you need.

Pick your head up even if you have to do it alone.

& know that in both moments, I’ll be here for both of us.

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